learn
learn, and forgive.
learn, and remember.
learn, and love.
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i get this once in awhile. realizing that there is indeed a bubble that gobbles up my imagination. i’m waiting for it to pop.
and to tell you the truth, i, once again, lost my affinity for words. and also, the confidence in love.
hmph.
the flurries must have blinded my sight.
i cannot see what is ahead again.
once again
Remind me how to write an essay about me again?
Day 1 of school.
Academic-wise, I’m looking forward to it 
FriendAquaintance-wise, I’m not sure why I care anymore, and I seriously don’t know what went wrong and I just somehow stop to care. I can’t see what I did wrong, and I’m sure I did nothing much wrong. And if one gets annoyed by one sentence that I said, hey, friends don’t mind that much, and you know what, welcome to the real world, there’s gonna be more people who’s gonna criticize you, so GET OVER IT! And I’m pretty sure my use is over for them.
Apartment-wise, I wish I have more time to get to know her.
I am not ready
to say goodbye to 2009.
to say hello to 2010.
to take a step closer to graduation.
to move forward to the ‘real society’.
Happy 1st anniversary
to us. it is still blooming, budding. but at times it feels like i have a little brother that i need to take care of.
it feels like we grew up. and apart.
oh how the time flies.
and i see how i used to fool around, worrying bout butterflies and little squirrels.
and now, when i see myself in the mirror, i see a stranger.
mutual existence.
do you know what darkness feels like? empty? frightening? lonely?
with darkness, there might be no light. when there is light, there will be darkness.
they coexist, but it is not mutual, it is not fair. just like how there is rich and poor, powerful and weak, happiness and pain, you and me.
this world is not fair. we coexist, but we are not equal.
not at all.
update 101
Hello people, and since my holidays started… a week ago, i think i should probably update here too.
I haven’t been writing much, or posting much pictures up, just because I’m using a dslr(nice excuse huh), and wordpress doesn’t publish .tif or raw files and i’m lazy to convert my files plus it takes a lot of time.
so, in conclusion, i’m just too lazy.
but hey, i promise i’ll write more these few weeks.. (3 weeks to be exact).
let’s see, first, academics. I think I’m close to a 3.6 this semester.. which means extra pocket money, possibility to join study abroad program next summer and new lenses. wheeeeeee
second, work. okay, work’s finished.
third, life. life, is like a roller coaster. there’s up and downs. i’ve learned a lot. a lot. a lot. there is no rules for judging a person. i’ve seen so many different faces of a person that i’m constantly reminding myself to be wary of who i am befriending.
okay it doesn’t seem that scary, i’m just exaggerating. haha. but still, you get my point.
oh and life. i’ve been snowboardingggggggggggggg. wheee! it was fun, but the aftermath of that was soreness and pain. i don’t think i would be able to move smoothly for this whole week. hopefully it’ll get better by this weekend. haha.
and fourth, boyfriend. we are good. he got me a tiffany necklace major love. i’m gonna treasure it along with the tinyyyy diamond ring that he got me. but still, hhahaha. yes i love my jewels and my brands. bluekkkk. (and my logic behind that is since i’m spending that much of money on something that cost a lot, i might as well spend a little bit more to get something that has a brand value in it, right?)
and yea, that’s pretty much about it.
tooodles.
it’s not like this, not like that
the fact that i’m actually annoyed by the fact that i even thought of caring about you(s) even in the first place you were the one annoyed by your selfish thoughts.
i’m done.
i don’t wanna care anymore, i’m done caring.
am i going to justify my own doings? yes, i stopped talking because i’m done caring about X too, i’m tired of picking up people’s trash, people’s mess.
so for now, i’m done talking, with you and you.
and so it is
we often go back to the past, and try to understand what was going on, and who you are, because you’re not here to tell us your story anymore.
and with the words that you left us, just like in Shakespeare’s sonnet 18, you’ll be able to say hi to forever.
